therapeutic

Monday, May 7, 2012

hello my fine friends.  I sure hope you had a fun weekend.  I always feel I should tell you about our weekend.  What we did, or didn't do, who we saw, what we ate {and drank} and about all the little things that make up our life as we know it.   But, I'm sorry kids, I am just not feeling it today.  Maybe its my watery eyes from these allergies that just won't let up, or the sad monster that jumped up and bit me in the butt making me miss my life in Wilmington like crazy today. Or maybe its the array of disheveled thoughts filling up my head and weighing me down, or maybe, just maybe its because I didn't have my coffee this morning....

But none the less, I am feeling what I am feeling, and writing seemed like a good thing to do.  I guess that is what blogging is about sometimes...


Do you ever feel like you have absolutely no idea what you're doing with your life? 
 or really 
What you're going to be when you grow up?  

Well, I feel that way a lot.  Honestly, I have felt that way for years.... God must have a plan for my life, I guess I am just wondering what that plan might be.  Maybe I need to just take "the bull by the horns", put my dreams into action,  adjust my sails; and all that, but it is so much easier to say than to do....

I miss my old job. 

 I worked at a children's specialty Toy store, and I loved it.  I loved the people, the friendships, the fun-childish atmosphere that you can only get from being around children and of course I miss the toys.  Not all things were good, don't get me wrong, it was work, after all.  But as silly as you may think it was, or unimportant, or not life-changing enough, I enjoyed it.  I was good at it.  It was my little career and it was going places.  And I miss it more than words can describe.  This has ultimately been the hardest aspect for me with our move to Virginia.

Discouraged.

I am discouraged with my body, my blog, myself.  I know all those things are very self-centered & self consuming.  But I'm on a roll, and I am just being honest.  

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Writing these words down helps, and I thank you for listening.  Please please don't think I am "fishing" for compliments of any kind.  That is not my purpose in saying these things.  After rereading this, I would love to go back and delete every single word.  But I think it would be more therapeutic to just click "Publish" and not look back....



sorry for the bluesyness of today's post
next time will be a little bit brighter
Have a sweet Monday....
xo


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2 comments:

  1. AnonymousMay 10, 2012

    Katie,

    Your blog is lovely. I love your information about the stinky flowers. I always thought so too. You're herbs look great. Keith accidentally cut my herbs last year, but the thyme grew back. I am encouraged by your herb garden to do it again. I have signed up for canning training June 7. We are looking forward to your coming Saturday to help Mom move. Would you and Chris like to join us to celebrate Mother's day by eating at a restaurant Saturday night? You are invited. Candy, Nick, mom, Keith and I and you and Chris will be there in the house. What an event! Your honesty about what was your purpose was a reality of what happens to us. God's word is light and truth and the Holy Spirit leads and guides us into all truth. When I didn't know where I was going the Holy Spirit spoke the scripture into my spirit. There is a scripture about the great plans God has for us. He has a good plan for you. If you would like to send an email to me, my email address is stroudp@email.carteret.edu.

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  2. Sometimes writing about it really helps the way you feel about it :)

    P.S. Since you're only working part time, you could always look into the local toy stores in your area and see if any of them need help...even if it's only for a day or two a week!

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